In One Month

This month, I pretty much locked myself in my bedroom without any human interaction. I did not go outside to experience the beautiful world or talk with people who had interesting things to say.
I stayed inside and ended up breaking down in the midst of isolation.
Don't ask why I did it. I am now behind with school and social skills. I am afraid to go back to work because I have not seen my roommates in a long time.
I gained weight.
Solitude is lonely. I like being around people. I like being everywhere.
I hope this year to discover where I belong.
Having a bicoastal lifestyle is tough. It is difficult trying to figure out where my life belongs but I will continue searching for a spot, somewhere, someday...

Till next time,
xo

One Step Away

Once again, I blog about our relationship. For ten days straight all I could think about was Zac. The way he made me feel that night. Special. Beautiful. Real.

Being here with my boyfriend put our relationship in perspective. I have been observing his behavior while I have been here in California and he has done nothing but shower my heart with attention these past weeks. Tonight, I remembered why I always choose him and it is because we have such a strong bond that is tough to break. I have had my fair share of high rollers and good looking guys but none of them ever compare to the type of love my boyfriend provides.

In this busy life, I often forget. I forget love to the point where I forget about me. I missed these little moments with my boyfriend. I am happy to be here with him and am so grateful that he truly puts up with my crazy side.